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Sunday, October 29, 2006,6:29 pm
SLEEPLESS NIGHT .
hm . not planning to sleeep tonight .as have to wake up SUPER early to go CHC with ben .haas .waiting for dad to watch his soccerr finish .so i cann watch the goong . HEHHE =xyeapps . anyways .about the things that happen on friday .thanks alot julia.always there to ZAP me back to reality (:shuni LAOGONG .it definitely hurts us to seee youu so xinku .hope that us bringing youu out helped xDits definitely hard to leave behind something you've held on to for so long .but . some things. are really not worth it .you must tell yourself that you deserve friends who CARE for each other .if so, going the extra mile will be something unquestioned.not just criticised .think about what is best yea (:life has to go on t0o .err . ohkay .dont say so much here . lalas ~JIAYOU to us !also .i know it may seem that im ignorant to what they say .honestly , it does hurt .its only natural that it would.but . our lives are worth too much to let their criticism flush it all away .i WONT let them pull down my self esteem .i WONT let them hurt me with their criticism .in fact . i respect their criticism .everyone has a right to voice themselves .so . they can say all they want in THEIR lives .and i wont let spoil mine .NEITHER WILL I LET THEM SPOIL YOURS .ohkay julia & shuni (:just make suure we dont become like that .HEHE . lalalas ~for today . its the last session with MRS STEVE .phew ~was SUPERR coldd can .had to say those CHEERS again . haas .we also had to sing the national anthem without the music .lol . superr funny .yeapps . was a funny lesson .managed to escape without having to present my non-existent speech .WAHAHA .afterr that .think i ran into pms .AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHH ~kinda got a momentary flash of anger towards my dearr buddy =xhee . but julia&azureen came andd save the day ! [AGAIN ] * COUGH .and helped me calm down . lol .feeel very guilty ba .i didnt mean to be angry . just was kinda frustrated with her . especially when things start to get administrative .but . we all have limits yea ?its not a ONE PERSON SHOW .hm . then we went to walk all overr to buy the stuuff for the india trip .haas . mostly walking heree . andd walking there .loook loook loook . hahas .actuually . kinda forget what happen le =xquite an emotional church day.couldnt just leave julia there !kept having this NUDGE that i should go with her .so i went . haas .hoped my prescence wasnt why things turned out this way =xanyways .sermon today was about money*money ITSELF is not evil .it is the greed and lust for money that is bad .your money is your LIFE .just as we freely received from God .we must freely give away .our God is the God of more than enough (:in our times of need , he gave.pastor kong gave many examples .also, we have to pledge with the right ATTITUDE.because, what goes up isnt the material sacrifices .it is the attitude and faith (:NO BARGAINING xD"those who sow in tears shall reap in joy"on hearing all the real testimonies.we should never doubt God.though it may take some time.maybe even a LONG time .as long as we pledged with our hearts, God will not overlook it (:ohkay . i dont be a preacher today .but, i still cant bring myself into the worship.i mean , i could feel a sense of enthu-ness.and i really enjoy worship.but, i could not feel God's prescence in me .as i looked all over the room .andd .. its a REALLLY BIG ROOM .you cant help feel a sense of isolation.but . i wont give up !i dont want to fall away from God anymore .no more no more .AFIQAH .youu t0ok your risk today .and WOOOTS !haas . youu should know what i mean yea ? xDlalalas ~reaally happy forr you (:julia (:i wont go into details in here ba .later roger seee =xyouu know what i mean yea ?you deserve much betterr julia (:things will take time (:dont bury yourself in negativity.the world still has to rotate.dont lock yourself behind the gates of the past .
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